Friday, March 18, 2011

Adolescence


Adolescence
ten years ago
 when the things we loved were shinny
and our worries were tiny
things were much more simple
now we pop the pimple
and enter the age of marijuana sex
looking in the mirror at out our tiny pecks
our hearts once carried no real burdens
those were the good days
ten years ago

(This poem is supposed to be a bit odd, and look at adolescence from a poetic side. Also, I didn’t use any punctuation, full stops etc; I don’t know why I decided on doing this.)
David Westlake

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Allen Ginsburg- howl (my favourite poem by my favourite poet)

Allen Ginsberg  (1926-1997)

Howl

For Carl Solomon

I

I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked,

dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix,

angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night,

who poverty and tatters and hollow-eyed and high sat up smoking in the supernatural darkness of cold-water flats floating across the tops of cities contemplating jazz,

who bared their brains to Heaven under the El and saw Mohammedan angels staggering on tenement roofs illuminated,

who passed through universities with radiant eyes hallucinating Arkansas and Blake-light tragedy among the scholars of war,

who were expelled from the academies for crazy & publishing obscene odes on the windows of the skull,

who cowered in unshaven rooms in underwear, burning their money in wastebaskets and listening to the Terror through the wall,

who got busted in their pubic beards returning through Laredo with a belt of marijuana for New York,

who ate fire in paint hotels or drank turpentine in Paradise Alley, death, or purgatoried their torsos night after night

with dreams, with drugs, with waking nightmares, alcohol and cock and endless balls,

incomparable blind streets of shuddering cloud and lightning in the mind leaping towards poles of Canada & Paterson, illuminating all the motionless world of Time between,

Peyote solidities of halls, backyard green tree cemetery dawns, wine drunkenness over the rooftops, storefront boroughs of teahead joyride neon blinking traffic light, sun and moon and tree vibrations in the roaring winter dusks of Brooklyn, ashcan rantings and kind king light of mind,

who chained themselves to subways for the endless ride from Battery to holy Bronx on benzedrine until the noise of wheels and children brought them down shuddering mouth-wracked and battered bleak of brain all drained of brilliance in the drear light of Zoo,

who sank all night in submarine light of Bickford's floated out and sat through the stale beer afternoon in desolate Fugazzi's, listening to the crack of doom on the hydrogen jukebox,

who talked continuously seventy hours from park to pad to bar to Bellevue to museum to the Brooklyn Bridge,

a lost batallion of platonic conversationalists jumping down the stoops off fire escapes off windowsills off Empire State out of the moon

yacketayakking screaming vomiting whispering facts and memories and anecdotes and eyeball kicks and shocks of hospitals and jails and wars,
whole intellects disgorged in total recall for seven days and nights with brilliant eyes, meat for the Synagogue cast on the pavement,

who vanished into nowhere Zen New Jersey leaving a trail of ambiguous picture postcards of Atlantic City Hall,

suffering Eastern sweats and Tangerian bone-grindings and migraines of China under junk-withdrawal in Newark's bleak furnished room,

who wandered around and around at midnight in the railway yard wondering where to go, and went, leaving no broken hearts,

who lit cigarettes in boxcars boxcars boxcars racketing through snow toward lonesome farms in grandfather night,

who studied Plotinus Poe St John of the Cross telepathy and bop kabbalah because the universe instinctively vibrated at their feet in Kansas,

who loned it through the streets of Idaho seeking visionary indian angels who were visionary indian angels,

who thought they were only mad when Baltimore gleamed in supernatural ecstasy,

who jumped in limousines with the Chinaman of Oklahoma on the impulse of winter midnight streetlight smalltown rain,

who lounged hungry and lonesome through Houston seeking jazz or sex or soup, and followed the brilliant Spaniard to converse about America and Eternity, a hopeless task, and so took ship to Africa,

who disappeared into the volcanoes of Mexico leaving nothing behind but the shadow of dungarees and the larva and ash of poetry scattered in fireplace Chicago,

who reappeared on the West Coast investigating the FBI in beards and shorts with big pacifist eyes sexy in their dark skin passing out incomprehensible leaflets,

who burned cigarette holes in their arms protesting the narcotic tobacco haze of Capitalism, who distributed Supercommunist pamphlets in Union Square weeping and undressing while the sirens of Los Alamos wailed them down, and wailed down Wall, and the Staten Island ferry also wailed,

who broke down crying in white gymnasiums naked and trembling before the machinery of other skeletons,

who bit detectives in the neck and shrieked with delight in policecars for committing no crime but their own wild cooking pederasty and intoxication,

who howled on their knees in the subway and were dragged off the roof waving genitals and manuscripts,

who let themselves be fucked in the ass by saintly motorcyclists, and screamed with joy,

who blew and were blown by those human seraphim, the sailors, caresses of Atlantic and Caribbean love,

who balled in the morning in the evenings in rosegardens and the grass of public parks and cemeteries scattering their semen freely to whomever come who may,

who hiccuped endlessly trying to giggle but wound up with a sob behind a partition in a Turkish Bath when the blond & naked angel came to pierce them with a sword,

who lost their loveboys to the three old shrews of fate the one eyed shrew of the heterosexual dollar the one eyed shrew that winks out of the womb and the one eyed shrew that does nothing but sit on her ass and snip the intellectual golden threads of the craftsman's loom,

who copulated ecstatic and insatiate and fell off the bed, and continued along the floor and down the hall and ended fainting on the wall with a vision of ultimate cunt and come eluding the last gyzym of consciousness,

who sweetened the snatches of a million girls trembling in the sunset, and were red eyed in the morning but were prepared to sweeten the snatch of the sunrise, flashing buttocks under barns and naked in the lake,

who went out whoring through Colorado in myriad stolen night-cars, N.C., secret hero of these poems, cocksman and Adonis of Denver—joy to the memory of his innumerable lays of girls in empty lots & diner backyards, moviehouses' rickety rows, on mountaintops in caves or with gaunt waitresses in familiar roadside lonely petticoat upliftings & especially secret gas-station solipsisms of johns, & hometown alleys too,

who faded out in vast sordid movies, were shifted in dreams, woke on a sudden Manhattan, and picked themselves up out of basements hungover with heartless Tokay and horrors of Third Avenue iron dreams & stumbled to unemployment offices,

who walked all night with their shoes full of blood on the snowbank docks waiting for a door in the East River to open full of steamheat and opium,

who created great suicidal dramas on the appartment cliff-banks of the Hudson under the wartime blue floodlight of the moon & their heads shall be crowned with laurel in oblivion,

who ate the lamb stew of the imagination or digested the crab at the muddy bottom of the rivers of the Bowery,

who wept at the romance of the streets with their pushcarts full of onions and bad music,

who sat in boxes breathing in the darkness under the bridge, and rose up to build harpsichords in their lofts, who coughed on the sixth floor of Harlem crowned with flame under the tubercular sky surrounded by orange crates of theology,

who scribbled all night rocking and rolling over lofty incantations which in the yellow morning were stanzas of gibberish,

who cooked rotten animals lung heart feet tail borsht & tortillas dreaming of the pure vegetable kingdom,

who plunged themselves under meat trucks looking for an egg,

who threw their watches off the roof to cast their ballot for an Eternity outside of Time, & alarm clocks fell on their heads every day for the next decade,

who cut their wrists three times successively unsuccessfully, gave up and were forced to open antique stores where they thought they were growing old and cried,

who were burned alive in their innocent flannel suits on Madison Avenue amid blasts of leaden verse & the tanked-up clatter of the iron regiments of fashion & the nitroglycerine shrieks of the fairies of advertising & the mustard gas of sinister intelligent editors, or were run down by the drunken taxicabs of Absolute Reality,

who jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge this actually happened and walked away unknown and forgotten into the ghostly daze of Chinatown soup alleyways & firetrucks, not even one free beer,

who sang out of their windows in despair, fell out of the subway window, jumped in the filthy Passaic, leaped on negroes, cried all over the street, danced on broken wineglasses barefoot smashed phonograph records of nostalgic European 1930s German jazz finished the whiskey and threw up groaning into the bloody toilet, moans in their ears and the blast of colossal steamwhistles,

who barreled down the highways of the past journeying to each other's hotrod-Golgotha jail-solitude watch Birmingham jazz incarnation,

who drove crosscountry seventytwo hours to find out if I had a vision or you had a vision or he had a vision to find out Eternity,

who journeyed to Denver, who died in Denver, who came back to Denver & waited in vain, who watched over Denver & brooded & loned in Denver and finally went away to find out the Time, & now Denver is lonesome for her heroes,

who fell on their knees in hopeless cathedrals praying for each other's salvation and light and breasts, until the soul illuminated its hair for a second,

who crashed through their minds in jail waiting for impossible criminals with golden heads and the charm of reality in their hearts who sang sweet blues to Alcatraz,

who retired to Mexico to cultivate a habit, or Rocky Mount to tender Buddha or Tangiers to boys or Southern Pacific to the black locomotive or Harvard to Narcissus to Woodlawn to the daisychain or grave,

who demanded sanity trials accusing the radio of hypnotism & were left with their insanity & their hands & a hung jury,

who threw potato salad at CCNY lecturerson Dadaism and subsequently presented themselves on the granite steps of the madhouse with the shaven heads and harlequin speech of suicide, demanding instantaneous lobotomy,

and who were given instead the concrete void of insulin Metrazol electricity hydrotherapy psychotherapy occupational therapy pingpong & amnesia,

who in humorless protest overturned only one symbolic pingpong table, resting briefly in catatonia,

returning years later truly bald except for a wig of blood, and tears and fingers, to the visible madman doom of the wards of the madtowns of the East,

Pilgrim State's Rockland's and Greystone's foetid halls, bickering with the echoes of the soul, rocking and rolling in the midnight solitude-bench dolmen-realms of love, dream of life a nightmare, bodies turned to stone as heavy as the moon,

with mother finally *****, and the last fantastic book flung out of the tenement window, and the last door closed at 4 A.M. and the last telephone slammed at the wall in reply and the last furnished room emptied down to the last piece of mental furniture, a yellow paper rose twisted on a wire hanger on the closet, and even that imaginary, nothing but a hopeful little bit of hallucination—

ah, Carl, while you are not safe I am not safe, and now you're really in the total animal soup of time—

and who therefore ran through the icy streets obsessed with a sudden flash of the alchemy of the use of the ellipse the catalog the meter & the vibrating plane,

who dreamt and made incarnate gaps in Time & Space through images juxtaposed, and trapped the archangel of the soulbetween 2 visual images and joined the elemental verbs and set the noun and dash of consciousness together jumping with sensation of Pater Omnipotens Aeterna Deus

to recreate the syntax and measure of poor human prose and stand before you speechless and intelligent and shaking with shame, rejected yet confessing out the soul to conform to the rhythm of thought in his naked and endless head,

the madman bum and angel beat in Time, unknown, yet putting down here what might be left to say in time come after death,

and rose incarnate in the ghostly clothes of jazz in the goldhorn shadow of the band and blew the suffering of America's naked mind for love into an eli eli lamma lamma sabacthani saxophone cry that shivered the cities down to the last radio

with the absolute heart of the poem butchered out of their own bodies good to eat a thousand years.


II

What sphinx of cement and aluminium bashed open their skulls and ate up their brains and imagination?

Moloch! Solitude! Filth! Ugliness! Ashcans and unobtainable dollars! Children screaming under the stairways! Boys sobbing in armies! Old men weeping in the parks!

Moloch! Moloch! Nightmare of Moloch! Moloch the loveless! Mental Moloch! Moloch the heavy judger of men!

Moloch the incomprehensible prison! Moloch the crossbone soulless jailhouse and Congress of sorrows! Moloch whose buildings are judgement! Moloch the vast stone of war! Moloch the stunned governments!

Moloch whose mind is pure machinery! Moloch whose blood is running money! Moloch whose fingers are ten armies! Moloch whose breast is a cannibal dynamo! Moloch whose ear is a smoking tomb!

Moloch whose eyes are a thousand blind windows! Moloch whose skyscrapers stand in the long streets like endless Jehovas! Moloch whose factories dream and choke in the fog! Moloch whose smokestacks and antennae crown the cities!

Moloch whose love is endless oil and stone! Moloch whose soul is electricity and banks! Moloch whose poverty is the specter of genius! Moloch whose fate is a cloud of sexless hydrogen! Moloch whose name is the Mind!

Moloch in whom I sit lonely! Moloch in whom I dream angels! Crazy in Moloch! Cocksucker in Moloch! Lacklove and manless in Moloch!

Moloch who entered my soul early! Moloch in whom I am a consciousness without a body! Moloch who frightened me out of my natural ecstasy! Moloch whom I abandon! Wake up in Moloch! Light streaming out of the sky!

Moloch! Moloch! Robot apartments! invisable suburbs! skeleton treasuries! blind capitals! demonic industries! spectral nations! invincible madhouses! granite cocks! monstrous bombs!

They broke their backs lifting Moloch to Heaven! Pavements, trees, radios, tons! lifting the city to Heaven which exists and is everywhere about us!

Visions! omens! hallucinations! miracles! ecstacies! gone down the American river!

Dreams! adorations! illuminations! religions! the whole boatload of sensitive bullshit!

Breakthroughs! over the river! flips and crucifixions! gone down the flood! Highs! Epiphanies! Despairs! Ten years' animal screams and suicides! Minds! New loves! Mad generation! down on the rocks of Time!

Real holy laughter in the river! They saw it all! the wild eyes! the holy yells! They bade farewell! They jumped off the roof! to solitude! waving! carrying flowers! Down to the river! into the street!


III

Carl Solomon! I'm with you in Rockland

         where you're madder than I am

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you must feel strange

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you imitate the shade of my mother

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you've murdered your twelve secretaries

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you laugh at this invisible humour

I'm with you in Rockland

         where we are great writers on the same dreadful typewriter

I'm with you in Rockland

         where your condition has become serious and is reported on the radio

I'm with you in Rockland

         where the faculties of the skull no longer admit the worms of the senses

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you drink the tea of the breasts of the spinsters of Utica

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you pun on the bodies of your nurses the harpies of the Bronx

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you scream in a straightjacket that you're losing the game of actual pingpong of the abyss

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you bang on the catatonic piano the soul is innocent and immortal it should never die ungodly in an armed madhouse

I'm with you in Rockland

         where fifty more shocks will never return your soul to its body again from its pilgrimage to a cross in the void

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you accuse your doctors of insanity and plot the Hebrew socialist revolution against the fascist national Golgotha

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you will split the heavens of Long Island and resurrect your living human Jesus from the superhuman tomb

I'm with you in Rockland

         where there are twentyfive thousand mad comrades all together singing the final stanzas of the Internationale

I'm with you in Rockland

         where we hug and kiss the United States under our bedsheets the United States that coughs all night and won't let us sleep

I'm with you in Rockland

         where we wake up electrified out of the coma by our own souls' airplanes roaring over the roof they've come to drop angelic bombs the hospital illuminates itself   imaginary walls collapse   O skinny legions run outside   O starry-spangled shock of mercy the eternal war is here   O victory forget your underwear we're free

I'm with you in Rockland

         in my dreams you walk dripping from a sea-journey on the highway across America in tears to the door of my cottage in the Western night

Monsters


Monsters,
 The kind that bite.

 Mindless…Moronic …Monsters, through the city we go…..

Under the streetlight lit streets chasing the shadows who have connected to our feet, crazy midnight Melbourne rain and nighttime warriors with umbrella battle shields searching for taxis and trains.
 Complaining, contemplating, and the verbal bullshit draining we hear from them on day to day, coming from black suit and white shirt workers of flaming evenings, with high financial incomes but somehow an extraordinarily low perception of pay.
When there are children that stand in front of speeding bullets and hack the limbs of fallen soldiers to stack them like toppled dominos in a box, their innocent skeletons tremble catatonically in there now New York playgrounds of lollipop knives.
With our red hoods we walk through the midnight darkened woods, to the hungry wolf we approach dazed and confused, a joint lay between our foolish lips with strong fixations upon the contemporary hallucinations.
 We stand here with our hundred dollar wrist watches ignoring the helpless cries, while ordering our nine to five coffees, trying to push it all aside.
These unenlightened workmen living in there excused worlds of happening invisible nightmares that occur in pitch black darkness and darkened blackness and blackened darkness surrounded by art and music that is underserved and symbolically,… heartless.
The city bums who ask us for directions to the man of double sided green paper, and black bottle tops. Their cold skeleton fingers tightly grasp the bottle of suicide gin that sooths the days into nights and the nights into hangovers, turning memories into crazed Hendrix purple haze.
Who crawled stubbornly through newspaper streets of musical nonsense beets, begging at our militant selfish body connected feet, as we walk through these zebra towns.
Who’s feeble minds construct religions upon the belief that the zebra is two separate animals.
Who spurt out with incoherent melodic recipes that cook in the stomach like led. Vicious racist vampires, like tattooed neo Nazis and the crazed Ku Klux Klan, feed of their own flesh and blood.
 Who cannot see Devine artistic creativity in the genius of heavenly painted symphony because they cannot perceive the horrors of narcissistic manmade religions that turn each man into the god of universal childish complexity.
Did we paint our own reflections after all?
 We will cross our unintentionally wicked hands and close our frightened blinded eyes even harder than it is known to have been physiologically possible, and will wish that all of our deserved pointless problems would vanish like exploding world trade centre’s that where filled with magical American fireworks planted by mindless sociopathic monsters.
 Were like a horse chasing a carrot that is hanging above its crazed hungry face. Human intelligence is like giving a young child a loaded shotgun.
 We should help them, we should help them, “to the ignoramus fathers of society “we should help them!!”Let us rattle the rich man society cages of selfish stupidity and ignorance that confines us to this cultured burden of “Eden”.
 A pathetic comfort zone of jazz green marijuana that floats over lamp lit, top hat streets, a formulation of cheap mathematics performed by pseudo intellectuals, that fly midnight kites with Mary Jane.
Where we can’t stop chasing our forever moving shadows and remember that there are horrific battles beneath our feet, like crazy mad barking dogs that lunge at their tails and bite as hard as they can yelping in pain.
 The flick of the equivocal mans Olympic torch, a forever burning lighter that sets of chains of Medicare dynamite, Idiosyncratic black teeth that smell of bong and a gun pointed at the man who raised me, wielded by long dead ghosts and ghouls, whom sat at my cradle.   
 Under silver healing moon light they sleep, laying drunken on city golf courses unable to reach the soapy carwash driveways that lead to their fantastical houses of the forever expanding universe.
 lying there we cry tears that fill oceans with drops of sadness, each by each praying on the battlefields of suburban moon light monsters that carry moonlight monster knives and crack needles, waving them in the air like there the identification key to the universal drug store of aids and Hep c.
 Angry werewolf Gangsters that are painting intellectual visions of million arm statues that reach through the hour glasses of lifetimes, unfairly labeled trash art.
 Guitar men singing songs outside of checkerboard piano cafes, beneath flaming midnight fireballs and night time rainbow fountains, guitar cases filled with phantom ruby treasure, once lost in the sea of deep blue jean pockets. 
 I see Peaceful corner shop heroes trying to make a day’s pay, robbed by heroin hungry junkies with piano key teeth and yellow cheek, black eyed memories that bleach the soul of all the purest of green extremities.
In the seas of raging alcoholic teens, under ancient blue skies and artist painted clouds, drives ferocious angry commodores, Screeching screams of screaming teapots that boil water for flower cups of soulful green tea, for warm hearted Melbourne beasts that drink under the Clair de Lune, of candle lit stars, the down under moon.
Children with holocaust bedtime stories about men with alien Nazi tongues, puzzled by the great puzzler, of 10,000 monster eyed lamp lit windows, glowing over Melbourne streets, like a never ending checkerboard built from inextricable white light time portals, that cast upon us the silk silhouettes of the poets of death with visualized doomsday prophecies, while the moonlight piano man dances under ancient trees of quavers that grow through these pugnacious concrete streets of rape and homicide.
 Where the haunted memories of violet blue midnight violence shall never die.
Influencing our reflections that are filled with serpents shooting like crazed heroin, they are our hair, mangled and knotted. And if we dare look, we will turn to solid crystal stone.
Soon, under the grandfather clock of time we all shall slip, a wristwatch, a needle, a tick. And out will come the glow of the heavens, with symphonies of forever no more, silent Melbourne sleep.
 Under infinite godless skies we have infinite been returned , a forever lasting death I speak, and in reply, a man with scruffy hair and dirty clothes summons the voice of god with violins, moonlight and cheek, he is a whisper in my convoluted ear, mocking at, my godless fear.

David westlake

Monday, February 7, 2011

Melbourne

Melbourne
The sound of jazz and the smell of coffee, the black chalk board menus and the smell of st Kilda seaweed beach air, the Smokey pubs with rock guitars and bogan singers that smell of beer and piss, uncles and aunties that fold their legs trying to think of nothing but there breathing, but unable to steady there mind from there intellectual artistic visions.
From composers of symphony’s to men who play jazz keyboards on a Friday night along with miles Davis on the trumpet wishing they were able play there ten tones like one of his, from killers to poets that spend their days in cafes of piano checkerboard keys contemplating who “the hollow men must be”.
I’ve met them all, from A to Z, in Melbourne, the artistic place to be, surrounding us with Melbourne midnight fire balls and rainbow night time fountains and trams that squeak on their tracks, filled with strangers that share the seats, Melbourne musical beats that come from the performance on the street.
The city bum’s who hold up signs in one hand that speak of prophecies “the day will come” with the other, there cold broken knuckles firmly grasp the paper bag bottle of rum that sooths the days into nights and nights into hangovers, desperate they ask for our parents coinage only to be turned down or humiliated by mindless business zombies  
From militant vegans to carnivores that curse “chuck another fucking snag on the Barbie” while choking down another piece of flesh, tearing it apart with their sharp teeth which reminds me of the way life goes in this convict established town that idealizes thief’s that wear tin helmets with holes across the eyes and a gun pointed at the bank man’s face, we look upon this with contempt eyes of grace and no disgrace, Melbourne, an unusual place.
And finally the warm Australian sun that keeps the foolish sun tanners at the beach, the local corner video shop that our fathers have taken us to since we were unable to reach the door handle of the store, souls that are warmed by the acoustic guitar played by musical super intellectuals down at the Melbourne town hall, our minds overwhelm and drown.
This is the nature of the nurture.
David James Westlake

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

The Riddle

The Riddle
David James Westlake

This is the riddle of the owl

 
Of the man who weaves through the wool
The language, of a broken fool
Oh how I am cruel, so very cruel
To take from you
What was not mine?
Not a penny, But a silver dime,
And to throw it in the bin!
Forgive me father, is this the darkest sin?

It will be in these times
That we shall grow,
That we shall grow so big,
And overflow.
And make a swamp,
That feeds the crow.

And now the owl has come to say
Do not be afraid
Do not be afraid
For soon is the time
That I shall trickle down the serpent's spine.
It will be this day, it will be this day,
That I will say.

Rest your head, upon the sand
That the waves sweep in, upon the shore
Because today we will be sure
That there isn’t any more
But was there anything before?
For those like me, so much more,
So much more, forever more

Hour glasses broken, in our hands
We lay upon the beach, hands bleeding
Souls of bleach,
The same in everyone, and every each
Our souls will be free to go,
Can we really leave?
I do not know, I do not know!

Can we see the stars?
Can we wake them, with the morning sun?
No, you can not
You spent your life at your mother’s spoon,
And this is the time of midnight,
and the moon.

For those of the spirit of the owl,
Whose life’s where not and never so foul
You can come with me
You can come with me
I will show you the garden, and the tree,
They do not belong to me,
But forever with the trinity.

The trinity of symphony!

And finally we reach you,
Oh the world, morals of poor
With its bent back spines made of straw,

This world will have in store,
Nothing more, nothing more.
The Earth lays flat upon the floor.


Inspired by T.S Eliot

Explanation of metaphors

Explanation of metaphors
Hey Ms Adams, just thought I would try to explain my poems a little
My poems are using strong metaphors in the form of symbols of nature that are personal to me, they influence the way I reflect upon music, this is what inspires me to write.
I have decided to explain the meanings of some of these symbols.
The Garden:  this a world of the soul that all other symbols exist within, the moths, roses of red etc (except for the moon and sun, which relate to reality), the garden is a place within the mind that exists outside of reality, it is a land where the evil are painted a deserving portrait, I often compare the garden to Eden, although when I am doing this I am in no way trying to reflect religious views, this is only a way of describing paradise. The garden is a place of music, the heaven of music.
The moth: this is often used as a symbol of Beethoven, although the moth can be anything that is considered as “ugly”, or pathetic, either in “the real world” or by what is considered beautiful in the real world (the butterflies of blue etc), I often use this as a symbol of Beethoven because he was considered to be an ugly man, and was made to feel alone and treated badly by his father, the moth is a symbol of beauty on the inside.
The god of Violets: this is my name for Beethoven; I call him this because I associate Beethoven’s music with the color blue of violets.
The god of Roses: this is the name I have chosen for Mozart, because I associate his music with the red of roses. (P.S, Beethoven is my favorite of the two composers)
The Butterflies of Blue and Roses of Red: these are the symbols I use to describe the imposters of “Truth and Love”, because roses and butterflies are considered beautiful in reality, I chose for them to represent cynical morals within my poems, also the butterflies of blue fit in with the moths symbolic meaning, this is because moths and butterflies are similar except only moths are considered ugly and butterflies beautiful. If I where to call someone a blue butterfly or red rose in a poem, than I am describing this person as beautiful on the outside but ugly on the inside in reality. In no way do roses of red relate to Mozart the god of roses.
The owl: the owl is my symbol for knowledge and the soul of music, it is similar to the holy ghost from the Christian faith, except only related to music. It is something which people can attain like enlightenment from Buddhism, Beethoven and Mozart can literally go into your musical soul through the spirit of the owl, often I describe the owl as singing, this is because one needs to hear the voice of the owl to become musically enlightened.(one needs to hear the voice of god “Beethoven, Mozart” to attain the holy spirit) Sometimes I refer to  the owl as,  “the bird of purity, symphony etc”.
The trinity of symphony: this is my musical version of the trinity from Christianity, it consist of Mozart (The god of Roses), Beethoven (The god of Violets) and the owl (the Holy Ghost). The reason that I use a Christian idea or principle in my poems is to express that music is like religion to me; That Mozart and Beethoven are not just men, but gods of music. In no way does this reflect my religious views, about Christianity or any other religion. I will state now before going any further, that I am not religious, and that the symbols within my poems with religious ideas are used in a metaphorical and not literal manner. I say this so I don’t sound like a crazy person who thinks Beethoven is literally god, although I do think he is like god in a philosophical way, but that’s a whole new can of worms.
The sun: A symbol of the heat of reality, when I compare something to or talk about the sun, I am referring to it In reality, I use the sun as this symbol because of the heat and uncomfortable feeling that the sun has on us on hot days, also because the sun is what wakes us every day, it takes us from our dreams and places us into the real world.
The moon: A symbol of the hidden beauty of music that lies inside reality, (unlike the owl which is the SOUL of music OUTSIDE reality which people can attain, like becoming enlightened in Buddhism.) Hiding from the sun which stands for  the dark side of reality, the moon must stay away and only come out at night when the sun is gone, this is because the world (being portrayed as dark, depressed and doomed)  is busy and has no time for music, although those who are patient and wait until it is dark can understand and see the glory of the moon, meaning those who are patient and forget about all stuffed up unimportant  !%$#(money, fame, greed in general) in the world, will understand and learn about the music which is beautiful beyond anything from within there world, The moon is a symbolic reason for us to want to live in this reality. It is the coming of the power of music.
Sorry Ms Adams if that made no sense; the symbolism of the moon is hard to explain in writing.
The crow: This is a symbol of pure evil, this is a creature that lives in “the garden” The crow is the absence of symphony, a symbol of hell on earth.
Midnight: This is the symbol for music being in power, because during midnight the moon is always in the sky and the sun has gone away. Midnight is when the voice of “the owl” can be heard, I chose midnight for this meaning because of the mystery and strange beauty that the night has, it is a time where all the shops, banks, schools, cars, shut and stop for the day, it is a time where you can go for a walk and you won’t see anybody, the world can be yours at midnight, also music brings out more emotion at midnight, parts of Beethoven’s 4th become absolutely horrifying to listen to when its dark.
(Midnight and moonlight are what connect reality to the garden, the world of reality to the world within our minds) while the moon is a symbol from only within reality, midnight applies both too the garden and reality.
The use of multiple languages: while this can sound interesting, the real reason I use other languages is symbolic of speaking in tongues, it’s like when the Christians talk to god in strange languages, when I use other languages in my poems, I am trying to express a kind of musical revelation of some sort.
There are more symbols and metaphors: The trees, the sword etc, but I won’t go into them yet, as they are far more ambiguous. And trying to explain them would be impossible for me to do in writing.
The reason I write this is just to explain that while my poems may seem random with ideas that don’t make sense, there is a meaning behind EVERYTHING, although sometimes they aren’t written down that well, it is my use of language skills and not ideas that limits me.   I DESPERATLEY NEED HELP WITH STRUCTURE, sometimes I feel as if the poems are all sloppy.
Thanks for all the help with setting up this page, and helping me with my writing.
Sorry if I didn’t explain myself well, it’s just hard to describe some of those meanings in writing
David Westlake

P.S  I have explained some of my symbols and metaphors, but i havent shown the ultimate meanings of my poems and how they relate to the world.

The Moth that fell in love with the Rose Parts 1-7


The moth that fell in love with the Rose
Part1 – Love and Loneliness
Sonatas that gently sing lullabies to the soul.
They cradle the innocent life of the moth
That was called to ugly to live, by the butterflies of blue
Frightened, he left from this dark colored world
And went to hide behind the trees with the owls.
For fifty years he lived to be an invisible man
Hiding in this universe, of depression and grief
Like the moon hides itself from the sun.
Do you remember the story of the moth?
That fell in love with the rose,
Only to realize that his wings were not of blue,
But grey,

Part 2 – The Moon
And while the violets and roses stayed young
The moth grew older and older.
Until on one day he died, the very dark comedy was over.
But while he was breathing the fire of life through his lungs
His heart was filled with the soul of the owl
The soul of symphonies and the Moon,
That the hearts of butterfly’s desire, but can never have.

Part 3 -Critical Reflection
This is the story of the moth that fell in love with the rose.
With a soul of purity that shadowed over the butterfly’s of blue,
With hearts that are hollow from the absence of the bird of symphony.
This is the Moth that spends his life counting the time he has left,
 To hear the owl’s voice.
Frightened, he lives in darkness, and in shadows,
Until one day he realizes,
 That the butterfly’s where his own reflection,
And that while his wings where grey,
His heart was violet blue.
“What you are, you are by accident of birth,
What I am, I am by myself”

Part 4 – The god of Roses
The moth lived to die, and became like the god of roses.
Who taught him “that death is the key that unlocks
The door to our true happiness”.
The moth replied,
“There are and always will be one thousand princes,
But there can only ever be one Beethoven”.
And forever he shall be known as the god violets.
He is the god that died so that I may discover the voice of the owl.

Part 5 – The Prophecy
Like the moth that hid in the garden
The moon must hide itself in the oceans of the universe
Every day for eternity, from the heat of the sun
But when the fire of life is extinguished,
And all of the pain filled smoke clears,
The sun must whimper at the moon and its sonata.
And the soul of the owl will dwell,
Within all the moths that live in garden of life.
Music will be the sword of the god of violets
And all of his disciples.

Part 6 – Ascension and Return
This is the story of the moth that fell in love with the rose,
He has left the shadows and darkness to live with the god of roses
The owl will be with them forever and ever
There was a moth of grey,
Who opened his wings, only to find he was the god of violets.
And the owner of my soul forever
His name is Ludwig, let  peace be upon him.

Part 7 –The Riddle
The holy ghost who I call the owl
And the gods of roses and violets
They are the key to this so very confusing riddle
This is the trinity of symphony.
The father, son and Holy Ghost.

David James Westlake